I knew the answer, but I didn’t want to hear it. “No. Not this season. Not yet.” So I tried to twist God’s arm a little. Present him with a list of reasons why my plan was better. Manipulate. Did he see the stress and worry our family experienced? Did he care? When that approach didn’t work, I cried bitter tears. My body felt like it was imploding as I screamed the question, “Why?” I still don’t have the answer. We don’t like to be left with unanswered questions, do we? We like it Continue Reading
For the One Who Grieves Someone Who is Still Living
I was fresh out of words. With arms folded across my chest, I looked out the bay window as if I might find fresh fire for my prayers. It seemed as though each one fell flat or hit some invisible wall, not reaching the place I needed it to. For years, I didn’t realize you could grieve a living person. In my mind, you only grieved for those who left this life for the next or perhaps those fighting a terminal illness. But someone still alive? I didn’t see it. Until one day, through a Continue Reading
Why the Best Is Yet to Come
I admit, I don't always live like the best is yet to come. Take the other day, for example. I almost missed it. It was the third day in a row of grey, overcast whether, and a mixture of ice and snow covered the ground. My three-year-old played inside while I did some last minute Christmas shopping online. Then, I hurried to round up my two youngest and pick up my firstborn from after school activities. As we made our way down the mountain, it appeared. With swift movement, it peaked from Continue Reading
