It started with a little insomnia. More than once during the week, I awoke from heavy dreams feeling threatened. Sometimes after hours of tossing and turning, sleep would come again, but I’d wake up in the morning with a nagging sense of worry. Then, I picked up an old habit of replaying conversations and analyzing them. What did this person mean when she said that? Did he really mean what he said, or was he just being polite? Interactions on social media were even worse, because there was no Continue Reading
You Don’t Have to Drown in Expectations This Christmas
I looked up at night sky and saw the stars dancing among the trees. I blinked once, thinking my eyes were playing tricks on me, but the view was the same. “Look!” I said to my husband. “The stars, they’re moving.” “Yep. Those are winter fireflies,” he said. Even in the darkness, I could see his smirk. Immediately, I realized what these dancing stars were. The laser Christmas light display from the front yard was projecting over the house, into the trees and sky. Its beam added an other Continue Reading
The Moments We Miss God
I missed God. I was sleep deprived, trying to get the kids to practices and remember to sign the millions of papers they brought home each day. Fear of failure consumed me, and I felt disconnected. In the big, life altering moments of the past few months, it was easy for me to see him. But in the middle of diaper changes, carpool lines, and soccer? Not so much. With time and the Spirit's help, I realized I wasn't missing him because he wasn't there. He didn't abandon me or forget Continue Reading
