I didn’t want the open the email. The subject line said it all. “Thank you…” After a few years pursuing this writing stuff, I knew what those two words meant. “Thank you but no thank you.” “Thank you but this doesn’t meet our needs at this time.” “Thank you, and please try again.” My finger hovered over the delete button before sending the words off into cyber space oblivion. I opened the Word document for an article I was finishing and the cursor blinked, mocking me. Why do you continue Continue Reading
When You Feel Abandoned By God
“Well this isn’t how you prayed this moment would turn out.” The thought passed through my filter of truth and circled my mind on repeat. I knew it was a lie, but I listened to it. I stood there with my four-year-old, who was starting a new school, and tried to hold back tears. His own tears flowed freely. “I want to go to old school,” he said repeatedly. The school staff gathered around, trying to calm him. “Buddy, this is your school now. You’re going to have lots of fun and you get to go Continue Reading
When We Give Our Doubt a Voice
“So what are you going to do?” It was an honest question, but it hurt. My new acquaintance was already getting on my nerves, and after responding with feigned confidence, I made my exit as politely as possible and went looking for my husband. Doubt can be such a lonely place. I was seven months pregnant and my husband and I were living over two thousand miles from the place I’d spent my entire life. We had no family nearby and friends were slow in coming. So the question, “What are you going Continue Reading