Every now and then, he gives me an undeniable glimpse of his love for me. A moment where I know without a doubt that God hears me. That he hears each and every one of us. My friend calls them God winks. But this. This was more like a God hug. It was as though he reached down from heaven, wrapped his arms around me and said, “I see you.” I’ve learned to pay attention. The evidence of his love and attention to each detail of our lives is all around us, but I sometimes I wonder how often I Continue Reading
What if “No” is God’s Saving Grace?
I knew the answer, but I didn’t want to hear it. “No. Not this season. Not yet.” So I tried to twist God’s arm a little. Present him with a list of reasons why my plan was better. Manipulate. Did he see the stress and worry our family experienced? Did he care? When that approach didn’t work, I cried bitter tears. My body felt like it was imploding as I screamed the question, “Why?” I still don’t have the answer. We don’t like to be left with unanswered questions, do we? We like it Continue Reading
The Silent Joy Killer We Don’t See Coming
My control freak tendency can be the biggest joy killer known to mankind. Ask me how I know. Let’s go back thirteen years to one of the few occasions I actually released control. My husband and I stood on top of an inactive volcano in Maui, waiting for the sunrise. I planned this highlight of our honeymoon for months. We stood at 10,023 feet, and as the cloud cover around us turned bright shades of red and orange, our setting became other-worldly. I huddled next to my husband to Continue Reading
