It started with a little insomnia. More than once during the week, I awoke from heavy dreams feeling threatened. Sometimes after hours of tossing and turning, sleep would come again, but I’d wake up in the morning with a nagging sense of worry. Then, I picked up an old habit of replaying conversations and analyzing them. What did this person mean when she said that? Did he really mean what he said, or was he just being polite? Interactions on social media were even worse, because there was no Continue Reading
God’s Love Wasn’t Casting Out My Fear
“I am going to die.” That’s what I kept telling myself on repeat as I talked to the OBGYN nurse over the phone. I tried to catch my breath but the tightness in my chest made it difficult to breathe. “Don’t try to come here,” the she said. “Just go straight to the E.R. Tell them you just had a c-section.” All my symptoms pointed to a pulmonary embolism, which could be fatal. I sat there in shock, rocking my newborn while I fed him and wondering what to do. Take him with me? Finish Continue Reading
If You’re Afraid of Falling
If you were completely confident in God’s unchanging, irrevocable love for you, would it change how you walked? If you knew that no matter how many times you fell, he would be right there to catch you, would it change the way you lived your life? I believe it would. Several years ago, God showed me what confidence in a daddy’s grip can do. Our firstborn was six, and he set out to conquer a new set of monkey bars at a state park we were visiting. But after climbing the ladder and surveying Continue Reading
