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Hope for When We Second-Guess Ourselves as Moms

May 10, 2018 by Abby McDonald

My mastery of second-guessing myself didn’t end when I became a mom. If anything, it became worse.

I second-guess what the kids ate for lunch. I wonder if blonde, hazel-eyed charmer should be further along in his reading ability. When the endless sibling rivalry turns physical I think, “Didn’t I teach them better than this? Will they ever get along?”

Sometimes the worst critics are the ones running on repeat in our heads.

We teach them to share, to love their neighbor and show respect. But when we don’t see the fruits of our labor we question whether anything we say is sinking in. We hear the familiar Proverb to “train up a child in the way he should go” but when we don’t see visible results, we wonder what we’re doing wrong.

Instead of living in the present, we second-guess the past.

A couple of weeks ago, God gave me a push of encouragement along with a wake-up call. My husband and I were settled into our comfy spots in the family room after tucking the kids in for the night. With the soft glow from the table lamp we read our devotional app and talked about its subject, prayer.

The teaching gave a blueprint. Begin with thanks and repentance, then present your requests to God in Jesus’ name.

As we sat there talking my mind went to our kids. Were we teaching them enough about prayer? My husband, as if reading my inner thoughts, said,

“Do you know what our son did tonight?”

“No.” And I secretly wondered if I wanted to.

“He thanked God for a good day at school and time playing at home. Then he asked God to place his hand on Coco and heal her.”

Coco, our dog, had been struggling to walk for last couple of days. At fourteen years and counting, she wasn’t as limber as she used to be.

Listening to my husband describe our son’s prayer, eyes welled up with tears. My firstborn modeled the exact form of prayer Jesus used with his disciples. And he wasn’t thinking of himself. He wasn’t asking for a new Lego set or a video game.

He was petitioning on behalf of our dog.

Even through all my doubt and questioning, God was working in the heart of our son. We were doing what we could do, but God was moving this little seven-year-old’s heart in ways only he could.

When we second-guess the past, we often miss what God is doing in the present.

I’m still learning day-by-day, and here are two things I’m seeing:

  • The time and love we pour into our kids glorifies God as much as the milestone victories.

No, we may not see fruit right away. We may have to repeat the same lesson a hundred times before it sinks in. But one day when we least expect it, they will recall something we spent hours trying to teach. And that moment will be worth every night of frustration and tears.

  • One of the best gifts I can give my kids is being present in their lives.

When they’re trying to talk to me and my mind is somewhere else, they notice. When I worry about tomorrow, my firstborn worries too. But when I’m fully engaged in the beautiful gift that is right now, they notice that too. And in the best possible way.

Parenting is a tough road. There are days when we wonder if anything we are saying or doing is making a difference. In moments of frustration it’s easy to play the past on repeat.

That night, God gave me an invitation to live in the now. To be present with my son as he prayed and grew and loved.

No matter what the future holds, I don’t want to miss it.

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  1. Christy Mobley says

    May 10, 2018 at 6:11 am

    I’ve done the same thing Abby and my kids surprised me with their faithfulness. As adults, they still do. I’m with you, live in the present.
    xoxo

    • Abby McDonald says

      May 17, 2018 at 10:06 am

      That is so encouraging to hear, friend. Thank you. xoxo

  2. Lisa Appelo says

    May 10, 2018 at 4:41 pm

    Oh we moms are masterful second-guessers! Double ugh. The enemy can so use that to get a foothold into our parenting and into living present just as you said. Happy Mother’s Day to you, friend. I pray it’s full and blessed and you feel honored, with or without a full night of sleep! xoxo

    • Abby McDonald says

      May 17, 2018 at 10:07 am

      Thank you so much, Lisa! Mother’s Day went really well, over all. I am so glad you were able to share your gifts with others that weekend!

  3. Rebecca Jones says

    May 10, 2018 at 6:41 pm

    My mother told me a couple of weeks ago to stop second guessing myself. I didn’t realize I was voicing it so much. I apologized. Happy Mother’s Day, I hope Coco is better.

    • Abby McDonald says

      May 17, 2018 at 10:07 am

      Thank you so much, Becky. It was a good day. 🙂

  4. Cristina says

    May 25, 2018 at 1:39 am

    I second-guessed everything as I became a mom. And still do it successfully. But as I see my teenager boy being kind with little kids, as I listen his changing voice trying to sing worships, even when his playlists are a „rap overflowed river“, I think to myself God is doing His job and I can take rest in Him.

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